Day 177: June 6, 2009

It's been a week. Let's start with the good news. I started my internship at Discovery Education Assessment. So far, I really like it. Everyone is pretty laid back and casual, and I absolutely love that I can wear jeans to work. Seriously... thats a huge selling point for me. I wore heels the first day because I wasn't sure how to dress, they killed, clearly I'm not ready for that yet, lol. But yes, working is good. I feel like a productive member of society again. Last week I was just so bored out of my mind, but I feel good again knowing I have something to wake up for everyday.

Tom's birthday present for me came this week. He wanted to send it early so I could use it for my Vegas trip next weekend. For the first time in awhile I was actually surprised by what I got! lol. He told me he got me a leather case. Which he did, but he got one to go along with the new purple Nikon Coolpix S620 & 4gig card. I really wanted a point and shoot camera so I could carry it around with me and take pictures of whatever. Don't get me wrong, I love my D300, but its huge. lol. And its not exactly the most convienent thing to cart around everywhere.

Alright, onto the not so good stuff happening this week. Well... believe it or not, I was in ANOTHER serious car wreck. I know, I mean most people don't even get involved in one, and oh lucky me, I get two before my 24th birthday. I was a passenger this time, but wow... it really brought me back to the last one. I didn't realize how distinct the sounds and smells were. I had sort of forgot about them. Never again, that is for sure. Metal on metal, the airbag exploding, very distinct loud scary sounds. I'm sore, but for the most part no serious injuries. Im very tender from the seatbelt mark, and my glasses somehow ended up underneath me... not sure how that happened exactly. But after I stopped crying (yes, I freaked out) I realized I couldn't see anything. Jayson's car was not so lucky. That thing was in pieces all over the road.

The whole accident was just... weird. Like the whole day was weird. You ever feel like the stars align to just make something happen? For the most part people live pretty routine lives and do the same things day after day, but Thursday was not a usual day. I did a lot of things that I normally don't do. And they all led to this stupid accident. Maybe the world is trying to tell me something: don't divert from the normal.

Here's how the whole thing started. Go back to like the day before or something and Jayson and I are talking on the phone about eating. Somehow we got on the topic that living alone and eating alone is very sad, and its a main reason I go pick up food a lot, because i just hate cooking and eating all by myself. So we had an engenious idea that we would have like little dinners and take turn cooking. That way, we don't have to cook for one, and we don't have to go out and spend a lot of money all the time of going to restaurants. So thursday was the first dinner and I cooked at my house. After dinner we were hanging out and talking about getting in shape for the love of our lives. See, Jayson is in sort of the same situation as me. He fell in love with this girl 10 years ago when he was high school. She was an exchange student from Germany. Theyve had this on/off Looooong distance thing going for a very long time now. I feel bad for him, because what I'm feeling is just a fraction of what he's had to deal with. And at least I know Tom is commited to me. They don't have that, they dont even know if they can actually ever be together. I don't think either one of them is really willing to give up their lives for the other person. Anyway, so Jayson and I are both super excited because both Tom and Anna are coming to the states in July. Tom is coming home for R&R at the beginning of the month, and Anna is coming to visit at the end of the month. I think it makes sense why we both want to look nice for them. Jayson was going off about wanting to build some sort of push bars so he can do push ups. He wanted to go to Lowes to see if it would be more cost worthy to build them himself or just buy them. He asked me if I wanted to go to Lowes with him. I checked the clock and saw that Tom was supposed to be coming online soon, so I ran upstairs to check if he was on. He was signed on, but away. I sat there for a few minutes seeing if he would come back, and when he didn't I figured I'd just run to Lowes with Jayson and then come back and talk to Tom.

We're walking out the door and I ask, who's driving? Jayson says he will. So we go to his car and I jump into the passenger seat and put on my seatbelt. We're driving out of my apartment complex and he asks me, left or right? You can get to Lowes either way, but I have a preference for driving down the back roads because I dont like traffic... ha. Ironic. So I said "left". So Jayson looks left and literally said, "No one is coming that way," and then he looked the right and there were cars, but they werent in the turn lane so it was good to go. Jayson takes the left... and BAM. Apparently there was someone coming from the left. But neither of us saw the mustang. I mean... the whole thing happened in like 2 seconds, but we did not see him. He definitely didn't have his lights on and he had to have been going 55 to cause us to spin around the way we did.

*sigh* I should have said "Right". Its crazy how one little word can just effect everything.