Day 227: July 26th, 2009

You know that moment in the romantic movies where the hero is reunited with the girl and they run into each others arms and the people around them clap and are happy for them and then they kiss and the world around them melts away and the camera does this nice little pan around them as the music gets louder and you just feel that special happy tingle inside of you? lol, well, I finally had my movie moment and it was definitely worth all that time I stood at that airport waiting for him to get back.

Seeing him again was just too good. Honestly, too good that its bad. Bad because I got to have our wonderful life back, and then have it taken away again two weeks later. Which blew, majorly. I had a good rythym going before he came back. I guess I was just used to having him gone, and I'm ashamed to say it but the longer time went on, the more I was forgetting what it was like to have him around. The moment I saw him though, the last 200 and whatever days just faded away and it was exactly how it was before.

We had a great time, we really did. It felt like so long and yet it went by so fast, if that makes any sense at all. God, i miss him so much. I feel really alone right now. More so than I have for a long time. This place is just so quiet and empty. I cannot wait to have him back.

Looks like I'm back to counting the days.

Day 202: July 1, 2009

"It's hard being left behind. I wait for Henry, not knowing where he is, wondering if he's okay. It's hard to be the one who stays." -Time Traveler's Wife

Replace the name Henry for Tom and you've got my thoughts exactly with that quote. He was supposed to be back either by tomorrow or friday. We were going to spend a night in Atlanta and then on the 4th drive to Clarksville and eat at the Blackhorse and watch the fireworks on base. We were going to celebrate being engaged for one year and he was going to take pictures of us underneath the fireworks. It was gonna be great.

I knew that I shouldn't get excited, because the second you start to depend on anything with the military they change their minds and ruin all your plans. But hey, I figured, he's already on his way back, what could possibly go wrong at this point? I thought I was in the clear for happiness. I thought it was okay to let myself be excited again. Shoulda known better.

He's suck in Bagram. He could be there for a couple days, a couple weeks. Who knows? And we wont know when he can leave till the very last second. So I literally cannot make any plans. It just amazes me that they can be so incompetent. I just dont understand why they can't fix this, or why no one cares enough to even attempt to fix this error. It pisses me off so much because he isn't even supposed to be there right now. He should have been out of the army months ago but they freaking stoplossed him and made him stay. You'd think the least they could do is get him home for his R&R.

I just want him back here with me. Is that so much to ask?